hello dear friends,
It's been ages yet again that i havent come on board and i hope you are all well (as much as can be). Tonight i feel like sharing with you my mostly good news.
As some of you may know, my boyfriend is a heroin addict and has used for yearrrrrssssss. We've been together for 9 years now (gosh!!) and it's been tough road but we still have an incredibly strong bond. We had some months appart (when things got out of hands) but mostly stick together. He's wanted to get clean for ages but cannot seems to find a good way to do it. He's tried everything (went out of country, went rehab 1,2,follow methadon treatment etc etc) So far i'm afraid all didn't work (damn, didn't i say i have good up-lifting news to share??!!!)
Even when i got pregnant last year he couldn't stay clean for more than 6 months...Eventually he got arrested (weird it didn't happen before) and got court ordered to one year rehab when our daughter Mia was one month old.
It's been tough not having him around (though in many other ways it's been great not having him around & worry about his life and death and to finally breath). It's been hard to see our daughter growing up without her daddy and after 6 months of him being in a strict christian rehab and our once a month visit -ALWAYS SUPERVISED- i was feeling drained. Too frustrating.
I guess Rain could feel it cos he decided to walk out of this rehab to be with us during Christmas and Chinese New Year (end of January). We could have quality family time ALONE and you can't even imagine how much we needed it. We spent a great one month and half together and his PO was quite understanding. Now he is back to another rehab which seems more relax cos he already managed to call me 3 times and sent me a letter. Plus, after the 1st month, we'll be able to visit once per week. That's an improvement and it'll help us go through this 6 more month hopefully easier.
So, i'm back to my "single" mum status but ith a lighter head.
Mia is growing and is a very smilly, happy baby. She'll be 9 months next week already!
I show you a picture of our (mostly) happy family and wish you all a great 2009!
Carine
