Talking about the possibilty of doing it is like debating with yourself whether to or not...and we know the longer the debate goes on the more chance you will lose that debate. I have said this before Trish. Just stop the debate!
You aren't gonna use. Go and get the best damn mp3 player you can afford, spend your money on something that won't destroy your life
The cycle has to end, Trish. You are a good person, give yourself a chance at being happy.