I knew as soon as I talked about it that it would hit harder. I dont know why it always does that.
I am all figity now and just feel like ****.
I feel like someone is standing on my chest. My heart is jumping. I am shaking a little.
I keep looking at the clock.
I am not wanting to get high because of work. Thats just somethin I threw out there to get off my chest.
I have money..Thats all it is.
I guess I am needing some excitement. I dont know.
If I can make it til I go get my check. I will be ok. I dont want to go blowing what money I have now and then end up blowin the check.
If I get my check.I know I will go starit to the bank and pay the bills.
I keep thinkin. I can afford a little. Its not like I am going to lose my job. I am off tomorrow. I can do just a little and just be done for awhile again.
Friggin AV is really hyper right now.
If I clench my teeth anymore I am going to chip a tooth.