I would say I feel like I'm part of the family here already, and while I was in the bathroom my wife was reading a little here and realized what I'm trying to do, and she told me with a big smile "I'm so proud of you!"
I just want to be normal. I don't want to be so obsessive about everything. Damn why Am I like that?
I feel like I am lower than the rest because of my addiction. I feel like I am weak and will never be normal. I hate myself for living like this for so long, what a waste of life.
You never realize just how addicted you are until you stop and talk about it with someone, but you don't want your friends and family to know how bad it is so you just keep your mouth shut. I am happy I have this place where I can talk about it freely, thank you so much.
