hi and welcome to s.r
I have that addictive personality....gene..whatever you wanna call it.
Although primarly im a alcoholic..........i will kick the backside out of most things that make me feel good..........if im not vigilant around it.
sex........gambling.......money.......etc the list goes on.
Given free reign i will do these things till im sick of them and they start to create problems with me and others.
Thankfully my life pretty free of addictive behavior these days......one day at a time.
Most of that is thanks to the AA twelve steps.....it helped me to look at my life..........minus the denial........and gave me belief i could change.
It is possible to get and stay sober..........and change.
alcohol will destroy you.....im sure you know.......it wont care whether your successful........or have a family........i believe it ultimate goal is to put me in the ground.
This is what i believe.......if i drink i have three routes
1....Jail
2....insanity
3...death.
Keep posting my friend........we can do this together.
God be with you...........trucker