I have to get the heart issue out of the way first...I don't have the money to see a psychologist. I'm going to tell the cardiologist EVERYTHING next week (that's where all of my money is going). Maybe my heart palpitations are due to damage from drinking......or perhaps it's due to anxiety/mental stuff....or both.
Once I find out exactly what's going on, I can figure out where to go from that point....as long as I can come up with the money. One week...