Just remember - if you give in and drink, when you wake up things will be just the same - or more likely worse. Plus you'll have a sore head and feel guilty, all that s**t...
You've done so well, i'm sorry to hear it's really tough for you, but drinking never made things better for me, only worse.
There are positive ways to deal with what's going on, being sober is the first thing though. You're not alone, and you're not pathetic. You're a fellow addict and we all care about you!
:ghug