I "ditto" what you've written! I certainly couldn't have said it any better/clearer! I wouldn't have the heart that I have if I didn't go through all the hell to break-it time and time again! I'm grateful for sobriety today, and pray in time I can embrace the past and not run & hide from it in shame. I'm learning each day now. I'm learning through all of you and my HP. I'm blessed to be a recovering alcoholic!