Thanks everybody for your input. Like I said in the post, I think I will know IF the time ever comes when I will be able to drink socially. It may not come and if not thats fine. Of course I would like to be able to, Id be lying if I said otherwise. I understand that our bodies chemistry has been changed but to me that doesn't mean it will be that way always. Our bodies do heal themselves, especially if you work to rewire your pleasure sensors for other more constructive outlets. Again like I said though, this is all theory, no experience. If anything lately Ive been craving reality. I had been numb for so long that I am sick of it. Thanks again guys for all the responses, shared wisdom is the best.
P.S. I really liked the pickeled joke, made me giggle