Sorry guys...don't have time to read this whole thread..read peices...but for what it is worth here is my expereince.
I was sober for 7 years. To get to that i had a lot of therapy and worked on a lot of serious childhood issues. I acheived sobriety and happiness. At 7 years sober I never even thought about drinking..no issue. But...
I did sorta wonder if my drinking hadn't been about all the phsycological stuff i had going on and i felt that possibly if i drank again I would find i no longer had a problem.
So during the stanley cup finals one year I decided to have a beer.....within a few weeks i was back to drinking all night long till drunk. Within months i was drinking heavily...at least a 1/2 liter of rum a nite, and within a year i was drinking 24/7.... couple of liters a day including in the mornings and at lunch.
What i learned is that no matter how fixed an well adjusted I become, I will nver be able to drink socially or occasionally again.....
but thats just how it was for me, everyone is different.