Thanks!
Thanks for all the wisdom, sharing.....I sort of had an epiphany last night. I just need to concentrate on my life and what I am doing including but not limited to how I react to certain situations, even when I feel like I have been pushed to the limit. Before he comes home I decided that I am going to make a coping strategy so that WHEN he drives me NUTS I will know exactly what to do besides get all up in my head about it which in turn makes me want to drink. Dont get me wrong, hes a great person but he can push my buttons like all SOs can. Till now I haven't had a healthy way to deal with the feelings that it dredges up, feeling helpless, lonely, trapped....but I know I can live this better, I am going to make a plan. Thanks again guys!:ghug