To forgive or not to forgive?
Alot of people say forgiving is one of the biggest steps to getting through your anger of the past. this statement always made me feel terrible. because honestly, i dont know that i can forgive him. My father was an alcoholic and i have not seen him since i was 9years old.
I keep asking myself questions every day. How could a father just basically give up his child? Why didnt he think that i was his number one priority? I remember one day when he called up to my highschool... (that was the only way he knew he could talk to, he didnt know where i lived or any phone numbers to reach me since he was out of my life for so long) He always called me his "baby girl" and would tell me how much he loved me... blah blah blah BULL CRAP! the only time i heard from him was when he needed something!! if he loved me he would have been there for me.
Basically... how do you forgive someone who has cause so much pain in your life? How do you forgive someone who doesnt even think they have done anything wrong?
*PeaceNLove