Hello Joyful Heart,
I'm to in the same situation. My husband went to a treatment centre over a year ago and I also told him that if he started to drink again that he could leave. We have 3 boys. He has chosen the bottle again. I'm confused and very hurt.I read your post Smoke and yes we are not the bad people. But I feel so betrayed by this disease that I just don't know what to do. I'm not happy with his drinking, but I wonder if I'll be any happier without him. I to ponder if this is Gods will. I to, don't know where to start. My children love their dad; who am I to take them away from him?I would look like the bad person in their eyes. I feel your pain and confusion. I just wanted to let you know that. I feel sometimes better when I hear somebody is going through the same thing as me.....Let me know how things go. Take care, and keep praying. I'm sure God will give us the answers when it is time and if we take the time to listen. (((hugs)))