I am really tired of the tough love now, I think people forget what it was like to feel powerless and hopeless and full of self-hate and despair.
Maybe people also think "I did it, why can't he, it is because he isn't trying".
I admit for the first half of 2008 I was going through a stage of wanting to not be an alkie, but for the second half I was trying my best, it wasn't good enough.
I wake up and check here now to see who has given me my latest spanking, talking about me like I am not here half the time.
Like I say, I feel hopeless and in despair and it isn't helping. I really need to take a break from here.