wow, they started him the same day he went to see a Dr.
Weird.
I'm not too happy they just put him on it. Just like that. I've been reading that it's VERY hard to get off.
Why couldn't he just not do 2-5 days of hell getting off heroin?.
(I had Hyperemesis gravidarum twice with my children (extreme moring sickness), I was completely incapacitated, sick beyond comprehension, and just wanted to die....yet I got through it.....and even got pregnant the 2nd time KNOWING how bad it would be....I made the sacrifice for my family (we wanted kids)....for months all I wanted was to go to the Dr. and BEG him to terminate the pregnancy, of jump off a bridge)....MONTHS I WENT THROUGH THIS.)
So forgive me ...."You %$% as* hole Junkie husband, you weak, pathetic excuss for a father/husband, you are weak, weak, weak and I hate you for it."
(yes I'm angry)
This sort of seals the deal for me (to separate) because he will still be an active addict.
Just for Methedone now. I dont think He would be a 'good' thing living with our children.
I'm just dying inside to have to 'let him go'.
I'm on day 4 now of dealing with this and being alone to pick up the pieces.
I'm mornning the loss of my dreams, family, love, memories and a sense of trust.
He is complaining/sad over drugs....I hate you so much.