It is defiantly time to “talk” with someone. I should have done this awhile ago, after divorcing my AH three years ago. I thought that I could do it on my own, but considering this situation, I see that my judgment, guilt, feelings, etc are not right. I am going to contact my EAP now to find someone. You know, I think that I need to be placed on an emotional budget in 2009!
As far as XBF, he is the enemy. I do not really care what happens to this man, I am talking myself into caring for him. I am risking my children…their safety and my custody of them because I made a huge mistake.
Thank you for your straightforward honesty. I have heard your words from my friends and Mom. But it makes it clearer to hear it from impartial observers!