I would mull this over for nights on end a few years back. Reading medical papers on alcoholism and searching the net for answers.
I didnt have a great childhood with plenty to install feelings of fear and self loathing....luckly i was into the care system by the age of 12.
So i guess theres plenty in there to push me towards "something" to change the way i felt and once i learnt i could shut those feelings down i just kept doing it over and over.
Does it matter?................not really.
Was it the problem?.......probably.
So whats the solution for me?...........move on.
Once i accepted that was my past and i could do nothing to change it...my life started to have a new direction.
The problem.........alcohol.
The solution..........Dont drinking.....one day at a time.
The Benefits.......Endless......trucker