I get it with the fck its that can come when I think the big one i can't handle is right around the corner...that is a good time to really focus on the moment. I've been giving it some thought, and I don't think I'm wigging out about christmas because it's christmas or anything like that...I think its that I'm in a sorta uncomfortable place at times right now and christmas sorta seems like something good to blame it on if i decide I can't do this deal.....
but that is just crazy cause i've been through a lot worse than a little growing pain in sobriety before...so I think I will stop even trying to "come up with a plan" and taake this one day at a time for a while....so i say and hopefully I will do.
I'm already through the hardest part of this growing thing anyways...so it really shouldn't be that hard
boy...the things we can hang on to...