"I think that recovery is truly ruining codependency for me. I recognize my own unhealthy behaviors and that knowledge mars the joy of the drama. All I've got right now is exhaustion and disappointment and resolve to do better next time."
BUT, it's also setting us free, opening up new doors/experiences that we couldn't see or FEEL before.
For me I prefer the hard painful work it has taken in order for me to feel and live the way I am now. I don't look at the future with eyes that say Oh my God look at all the hard work I have to do. I look at yesterday and today and say thank you for coming so far.
Baby steps TC, keep up the good work! If you need a break, do it, no one says you have to finish the journey today. I believe if we are truly blessed the journey never stops because as we travel this road we are always learning, always meeting new people, living new experiences and loving everything that life brings to us now. I am FEELING, I am no longer numb.
K.
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