(((Ellie)))
Know what? The one who determines how much you are worth is YOU! Now that's power! You just gotta use it.
I'm really sorry you are having a bad bit of time now. The hard times can be really ... hard.
I'm looking forward to posts down the road when things are looking so much better for you. It will happen, if you keep taking the next right step, hard as they are, now.
CLMI