It's always easy to say it, admit it after we feel like crap. The hard part is not drinking when you feel good. Find AA meetings and attend them faithfully. The rest will fall into place. You have to want sobriety more then anything.
I believe you are right that you need to quit for health reasons. The reason you can not drink again is because an alcoholic picks up drinking right where they left off. So if you can down a few shots now.....you'll be able to do that in a year after sobriety. Be careful.
It's a dangerous disease that talks you in to drinking again.
I've lost two beautiful people. One was a female who would NEVER have done the things sober that she did with guys. The guys KNEW this and would always buy her drinks. Don't be nieve and take care of yourself.
You WILL die without help. Please keep coming back. One day at a time hun