When you are thinking of going out and having one or two drinks. think, can I just have 1 or 2? if the answer is honestly yes, then I would say reconsider if your an alcoholic, now if the answer is no, I cannot stop at one or two..then think of the past drunks, Play the drinking episodes from beginning to end. not just the beginning fun stuff..but all the way thru to the black outs, the fights, the hangover, and the horrible feeling of guilt /shame/embarrassement, etc, the next day.....then decide if that is what you really want.. Stay strong, your doing so great sober..getting it together, for sure..