Fiona630,
You are talking my language! Could'a, should'a, would'a.... Why is it all or nothing.... "I can't remember doing that, saying that ......"
Try not to hammer yourself today!
I'm guessing this is not "new NEWS" for you with your drinking???.... You can't change the yesterdays. We have an opportunity at today and if we are lucky enough - tomorrow. You recognize what's going on with you and additionally your husband. You're in a good place. Build up support for yourself because we really aren't like the "others" out there and can make partying fun without the consequences anymore.
New Years.... ??? Let's try to stick to today cuz tomorrow is a long way off for us!
My encouragement is heartfelt!