Originally Posted by
allport 
Apparently there is a split in his church, is nothing sacred?
Welcome allport!
Yeah, good luck on getting together with secular groups. And why is that, begs the question?
Why do you feel worse after attending a meeting? Some of us attend AA. I've never felt worse afterward, but I am looking into some different meetings. Who knows where the future will lead. Some here attended AA early on and then found another path. Some find their own way in AA and it works for them. Some have success with online SMART (et all) meetings and exercises. It's all good, so long as we don't drink and find a way to inner peace and outward productivity.
I do believe that early recovery is a dicey period, and support can make a real difference in making it. Change and growth are difficult when the brain/mind is struggling to regain some kind of equilibrium, not to mention long ingrained habits and baggage. This takes time.
Anyway, again, welcome. Please vent away as much as you want.
I hope you find what is right for you and your recovery.
Hugs,
Donna