GiveLove - First of all, thank you so much for replying. It's a relief to find someone who can understand my circumstances.
I know you're right in everything you have written and yet the truth is so difficult to swallow. I feel incredibly guilty, because I feel like maybe if I had made that extra push she might not be in the state she is now, but I know that my guilt is unfounded. I have pleaded, threatened, sought counsel from professionals and it was never enough. It's this smothering helplessness that forces me to make a last ditch effort even though I know my mother is unwilling to seek help. I can't stand the idea of standing by idle as she dies.