dope dreams are real, they are horrible and they are common. they get fewer and farther between and you learn to handle them better. they used to control my whole day because i would wake up in such a mess. they still come now...a year later but they don't come as often and now i can wake up and shake it off. what you are going through is normal; know that. you aren't alone. i'm very very sorry... i know it's tough but it will get better.