Welcome to SR Shanman!
Welcome also to bstt03 and jdaisymae!
I'm glad you found us. There is a lot of great information and support here for you. I am on day 59 sober. This was not my first attempt at sobriety, but this one seems to be sticking for me.
I have struggled in the past because I could not get my head and heart to agree that I could handle alcohol. Now we (me, my head & heart) are on the same page. We now know that I can not handle alcohol.
Read the stickies at the top of each section, post your questions, and jump into conversations. I joined after lurking and reading the stickies. I got a lot of motivation after reading the excerpts from the book "Under the Influence" that are posted on this site. I bought a copy and it has helped me to understand that my body became dependant on alcohol. That was why I struggled with quitting.
You can do this! We are here for you.