Here's what I found. If I do NOT go out......I don't drink.......if I don't drink, I don't do coke. Maybe you shouldn't go out since those are your triggers. I HAD to stop because I had no right to do that to my childrens mother. I was being selfish instead of thinking of them. When you have a child it's time to grow up and put the partying aside. I found that worked for me.