Although no longer a member, I simply cannot bash AA. It was there for me when I was going positively sideways. I think that old Bill W. is a brilliant man but there was simply a member borne climate I couldn't quite come to grips with. It saddens me a bit that AA is often thought of as the one and only answer as I wholeheartedly disagree with that notion.... yet there is tremendous wisdom there. Somewhere along the line I realized my brain had everything to do with my problem and that's what I'm trying to save these days...and in turn, hope it returns the favour.