Originally Posted by
gneiss OMG!!! I'm not the only one!!! See, I can pretty successfully stay sober for a few days at a time--this latest was 3 and a half-- and then I have a drink and I feel like a loser because (at least in my mind) "everyone" either stays sober or goes back to it. So there's hope for me yet. I don't even have to drink a lot, just one or two is enough, I don't [always] lose control.
Actually, my last night out at the bar I lost it in a big way and that was the final straw. I realized I had to get sober and deal with my problems instead of throwing alcohol at them before I end up in jail, dead, or otherwise in bad trouble.
Plus, I'm starting grad school soon. Who wants to start that on a bad note?
I've been stuck in this cycle for 6 or 7 years and have never completely lost hope. I started making serious attempts to leave the beer (and weed) behind a few years before I joined SR.
BTW, welcome to the board!