Day 6 for ksplash5
i'm tired irratible, hungry, bored, and frustrated this morning. i need to work some recovery. i need to re-affirm that my goal is to stay clean today. i don't feel that at all right now. i feel the "i don't cares". like i'm just waiting for the opening--the opening to get high.
i've stayed clean thus far, mostly because i was about completely broke. my pay is now deposited in my bank account. seeing the money in my account has brought upon some of this anxiety, but it was even tyere when i woike up this morning.
i think i need to get off this computer and have a little snack and then be quiet. so i'll go ahead and do that.