Originally Posted by
Bamboozle 
Oh yeah...something else that's bothering me. I've gained about 10 pounds in the past 3-4 weeks because I've been binging on food (because I couldn't drink). I was literally eating myself to death. I couldn't stop. Gaining weight that fast is NOT good. That was a big reason I caved last night. Desperation to calm the mind...I had to do something.
Aw, Bam. Don't go on the alcoholic diet. You are in no way helping your body by trading out food calories for alcohol calories.
I used to think that drinking calmed me down, too. It did; just like Haldol "calms you down". It knocks your mind out of commission. Calm is too positive a word for numbness, in my book. But you're right... you need to do _something_. The status quo is not working for you. So the question is, what next?