Hello, everyone.
Well, I drank last night. (Please don't smack me)
I'm okay, though. I've been doing a lot of thinking. I know I have a problem, that's for sure...but I've been putting unrealistic expectations on myself. Basically, I'm psyching myself out and stressing out way too much. The pressure I put on myself to stay sober no matter what is unreasonable right now...it's not helping me.
This does not mean that I'm hanging up my shoes/throwing in the towel...far from it. Again, as I always find to be true in life, I need to stop worrying about how others best approach this and worry about how I will do it instead.
I'm not beating myself up.
I do not consider this failure.
Rather, this a part of the journey and I refuse to feel badly about what I did. It's a part of who I am, and if I'm going to learn to master it, I have to be able to fully accept and understand it...and I must be patient and remain calm. Peace.