Good thing your kids didn't see that. But what about next time. I think you need to put your children ahead of YOUR NEED to take of your husband and your husbands NEED for help. The kids are your responsibility. Not your adult husband. He's a big boy. It's about time he took care of himself. If 3 years of trying to push him into recovery hasn't worked, well... how many more years are you going to keep trying to fix him. Maybe it's time to consider that he just doesn't want to be fixed. He just wants to use his drugs without you bugging him about it.