Please read, "What Addicts Do" at the top of this forum, in the stickies.
It will make clear to you that he did not love you; it was impossible for him to love you because he does not love himself. You were a tool for him to use.
Please read it. Then, stop being surprised.
You will be able to regain your life and your self value one step at a time, after you accept that reality.
I say this with empathy and with love in my heart for what you are going though...
Shalom!