(((Rozied)))
Great comments above. I particularly agree with Marle. I had to go through a grieving process that I couldn't use crack occasionally. It was all or nothing for me. I still have the occasional thought that it sure would be nice to just smoke into oblivion for a while. It's just a thought, though, and I don't act on it.
I also agree that this is a process we have to go through. I was several months into recovery before I gave up the idea that I could use again, every now and then. I finally started remembering the BAD that went with using, rather than thinking about the "good".
Hugs and prayers!
Amy