One of the things I had to admit powerlessness over too was trying to comprehend addict thinking...or really any thinking that I didn't agree with. I realized it was part of my "control issues" lol. It helped me sometimes to think about some of the things I have done despite knowing better. (like smoking or eating sugary foods...yup, I knew it wasn't healthy and could have negative consequences, but was it enough to stop me? When I stopped, did I still think about it and wish for it? Did I stay stopped?) I know it isn't exactly the same, but it did help me to realize we all have to figure out our own journey and sometimes there are lessons our HP provide that are not obvious. Hugs