Depression did not lift with sobriety, even after a year, two years. I was self-medicating. God granted me the serenity to admit to my doctor that I was struggling, the wisdom to take my Lexapro as prescribed, and the courage to re-enter treatment and work it for all its worth. The messages are getting through now in a way they never have before. Point being: I am not "happy" or "up" all the time, but I am no longer numb. I can feel feelings and am calm enough to work through them.