Rozied,
I found myself feeling that exact same way for the longest time.
I figured if I kept in contact with all his drama, then I wouldn't
get a big surprise when or if something terrible happened. I'd be
ready for it, kinda.
Do you know how many sleepless nights that will lead too, sweetness?
A heck of a lot. lol
So, by letting go and turning him over to HP, I was able to stop blowing everything up into something and really start focusing on myself. My needs.
My own darn drama, if you would. lol
It's hard. I still slip. I didn't talk to Jay for 2 days straight this week.
I thought about it for an instant. Then I let it go. I knew I'd hear from him
soon enough. When I did....he sounded find.
I think we, as codependents, read alot more into situations sometimes, than we actually need to. We look for things to fix.
Do something fun and interesting just for you right now. Don't think, just do.
You'll hear from him soon enough. Believe me, if he's anything like Jason....
there'll always be somethin'. lol
Sending you prayers of letting go, letting God.
Linda