I also relate alot with La Tee da's post. I wish I would have called too. I was so worried about keeping the peace with his family and most of all him. It was always so much easier to try to just keep the peace. You start to worry so much about everyone else that you forget to take care of yourself. I should have started calling long ago too. I may have been taking care of my kids but that didnt stop them from being affected either.