Thanks for the warm welcome everyone...
Jen - That is a horrible story and one that I would never want to live through. I have been writing a list of all the reasons that my drinking is destructive and it just keeps getting longer and longer. This really needs to stop before I find myself having legal troubles to add to it. I think that my bottom has just been losing both my parents within a month of eachother and not having good relationships with my children. They both drink a lot as well and when we are together it is not pretty. I need to feel better and healthy so that I can enjoy the rest of my life.