Originally Posted by
kelsh 
Hi Spyckat, :ghug3
I think it was hydrocodone you were talking about being addicted to with your teeth problems....please don't be ashamed of where you are with your addiction. The docs have heard it all & when a patient comes in asking for help that makes their day as well as being able to help you. :ghug2
I just got out of a Geriatric Psychiatric Unit for a severe manic attack & I felt shame at first but couldn't remember what all I had done. Now that I am home after 10 days, I get bits & pieces told to me when I ask.
I had too much stress coming at me from too many directions & my mind & body took over...crazy...I was evaluated at the local ER by a co-worker I had at Mental Health before I retired. So embarrassing. I refused to go to the hospital so was ITA'd & taken by ambulance because my husband had just been released from another hospital where he went for breathing problems.
It is not embarrassing nor being a failure to ask for help. An addiction is almost always too hard to quit unless you have help from others including a doc, AA, or NA. I got sober 20 years ago with the help of the alcohol program, my doc, & AA. I also got help for my depression & had counseling for that too.
Please think about where you are now & where you would like to be a few months from now if you get help. Please keep coming back to read, post, or tell us Hi so we know you are okay.
kelsh
OMG thank you so much for sharing your very personal & intimate story with me!!! It really touched my heart :-) It's nice to know that they're is still such a thing as strangers caring about you.
Your story is very inspiring to me. It also makes me feel like I'm not the only one who has gone through these psychiatric issues. Especially when you said how embarrassed you were.
That's how I feel. My BF get's mad at me all the time because he doesn't understand why I get severe panic attacks. He doesn't understand why I can't just "forget" about all these negative thoughts I have circling in my head 24 hours a day.
Worst of all, my anxiety has gotten so bad, sometimes I almost can't make it to work. That is my worst fear, more worse than the thought of death..... is that I won't be able to work & have to be on social security.
I actually was on social security before I became an addict. When I was 18 I got social security because of my severe anxiety.
I didn't work until I think I was about 22 only because of the fact that I hated being so ridiculously poor. Also, the anxiety was manageable at that point.
But, I am seeing a psychiatrist & a therapist on a very regular basis. I am rx'd to 150 mg of Zoloft & 1 mg of Klonopin to take 3 times a day. He wants me to take it exactly at certain times 3 times a day instead of a as needed basis, he wanted it to stay in my blood 24 hrs a day.
I have not been taking them as directed at ALL. I get 90 every month & I seriously still have 40 left.
The reason? Well, I'm a hydro addict of course, can't mix hydro with klonopin or I'll die, *hmph* doesn't make any sense at all.