tlrgs

Not to offend anyone..But it all started with me and it will end with me.. I
know now what i am able to do now .When I ask myself a question i can think with
a clear head without the fog of life dragging me down too much .. Yes it does
drag me down at times but i can control it now .. I have grown so much and why
its all because of one thing.. I change in my life yes I took it away, out of
the picture and yet it still is always around me.. But the difference.. Do i let
it control me or i control it ..
I have learned that yes i have all the answers that i need within myself ..Not
to sound vain..I don't mean it that way.. I mean when you really need to know a
answer.. You can find it within yourself ..Its like when you say to yourself.. I
really want to drink and you know deep within yourself you shouldn't ..I have
learn to listen to that voice and realize the out come of what could happen and
know what would happen..
I look at myself now and I thank god for what happen to me.. For everyone to
walk away from me and me trying to kill myself ..Because it has showed me the
way to repair myself without the help of another .. But yes with help from god
my higher power what ever you want to call him her it ..
Things are changing in all good ways ..Yes life can get better but hey in time
as they say ..I have my kids back and we are talking even more now .. and the
things that are different with that.. Is I'm not trying to control what I
cant control anymore ..I can only do my best to help it go right as best as it
can
and when I say it only takes willpower that's all it had taken me ..I didn't do
any meds vit ..nothing I went Thur the pain of it all and to tell you the truth
it was worth every bit of pain to get this far .. And if you think you cant do
it ..Just keep on saying that and then one day you will wake up to what I did
and that was nothing everything was gone or you can just get off your ass and do
something about what you know you have is a problem with alcohol..
The time is
now find the help you know you need and do this for yourself.. Make your life
the best it can be and the problem you have with work family ect ect will get
better in time just because you your doing your best with a clear head..

Know that is all up to you ..To make the change for yourself ..
No one else..stay strogn and think positive..