my day to quit
I have been drinking worse the last few days than what I use to do; I have poured out a lot of booze and tried the cutting back on how much; but the last 5 days have been bad. Today I am staying home from work and going to rest a lot and drink plenty of water. Tomorrow morning I am going to a meeting and hopefully will have the courage to speak up when the question is asked "any one in there first 30 days"; I know this is the next step I must/need to take. And have figured out a meeting for sunday just have to get directions.
A few days ago I found a prayer on an old floppy disk, I printed it out on a small piece of paper and keep it handy; being of cherokee heritage this prayer works for me and want to share it.
An Indian Prayer
O Great Spirit whose voice I hear in the winds, And whose breath gives life to all the world, hear me! I am small and weak, I need your strength and wisdom. Let me walk in Beauty, and make my eyes ever behold the red purple sunset. Make my hands respect the things you have made and my ears sharp to hear your voice. Make me wise so that I may understand the thing You have taught my people. Let me learn the lessons You have hidden in every leaf and rock. I seek strength not to be greater than my borther, but to fight my greatest enemy, myself. Make me always ready to come to You with clean hands and straight eyes, So when life fades, as the fading sunset, my spirit may come to you without shame.