Wow! That is quite a story. I am so sorry that you have been thru all of that. i just want you to know that the energy level DOES return, and i was a meth addict yrs ago and a hydro addict w/ 7 1/2 months clean now. I am getting a lot more organized now and feel GREAT!
You too can do this. Have you ever thought of trying NA? I didn't do well on my own, but since meeting ppl in recovery, it helped a lot!
blessings, Sheila