I'm still in two minds - the crazy alcoholic in me hates the fact that I have decided never to drink again, it's like that song... cold war kids? "I promised to my wife and children, I'd never touch another drink as long as I live. But even then it sounds so soothing, to mix a gin and sink into oblivion" But oblivion is just what it is, or what it was. It obliterated the qualities in me that my friends admired, my fiancee adored, and my daughter looked up to. to sink into oblivion would be like tumbling down that black hole again. I don't miss that black hole. I love feeling good first thing in the morning!