Aww, thanks girls.
I know I did the right thing coming back here. And I have missed you all very much!
My husband is out of town this whole week and I've been drinking every night.
I'm sick of it, though. I'm not going to drink today and this time I MEAN IT. Something's got to give. I can't keep on like this. I'm drained... I'm considering going to a meeting tomorrow at noon. I keep trying to picture myself actually GOING... walking into the room... and it scares the crap out of me.
I still haven't told my husband what the deal is, but I came *really close* the other night. Then last night we got in a fight and I felt like it undid everything good that had started the previous night. *sigh*
I'm getting caught up on reading all the posts from the past few days. This is where I need to be. The support is just outstanding.