Thank you all for your terrific responses. Just a response saying "yeah, I know what you mean" is so helpful.
Ananda, I read another post of yours where you expressed this difficulty. Your phrase "change is a fact of life" is no small thing. Impermanence is a law of nature. And I hurt when I try to go against it. I think I am just wishing for some kind of "safe" routine. I don't think it exists.
I really like what you had to say fu7pink. As I said in my post, there are some positive things going on as well and I feel this "revitalization" going on. It is just the change is so big and on so many levels. As I mentioned, I am in a rushing current and have no idea where I am going to land. Yes, I am considering moving...ugh! hate the idea of packing again and downsizing, but I am willing.
Thank you all again. This is a terrific forum.
Gassho