Old 08-17-2008, 04:43 PM
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Anna
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Hi and Welcome,

I also turned to alcohol in desperation to self-medicate after years of depression and chronic pain. I was shocked to see how quickly I became an alcoholic and how much denial I was about the situation.

Your comment about your mother hit home too. My mother was an alcoholic and all my life growing up, my intention was to be 'not like her'. Everything I did was to be not like her. Of course, what happened was that I became exactly like her, which was horrifying to me. In hindsight I realized, that in trying to be not like her, I had no idea what I really wanted in my life!

It is really scary, but you can stop drinking and why wait till September? It's my experience that there is always a reason to put it off. I was great at doing that. I'm not an AA person either. I use books and SR and I have found more peace and joy on the road to recovery than I ever believed possible.
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