Originally Posted by
hope213 
quote :I miss that feeling. We tend to remember the good parts.
what i don't understand is what the good times are. feeling bad, getting hand cuffed & drug to jail like a dog? being locked up in prison for yrs???? what are they? after any clean time i do not understand & never will.
The first time I did meth, I thought, OMG, THIS is what I've been missing all these years.... Now I finally feel "okay".....
For one reason or another I never felt okay, be it this or that.
So when someone gives you a solution you've been searching for,
for your whole life?????? That feels pretty good.
I guess if you've never felt that part of you missing, it's hard to understand.
But then that part changes, and you start getting high, to feel the high, not to just feel normal, then you have to get high to feel normal..
THAT WAS "ME" anyway....
We look to what we need to get to..... We often don't think
of consequences first.....
For me staying off meth requires always playing it out to the end.
If I do this, then this is what is going to happen....
That's my experience anyway..
getting hand cuffed & drug to jail like a dog? being locked up in prison for yrs???? what are they? after any clean time i do not understand & never will.
I don't understand that so much either, I won't try to..
I think we are all just wired different.